Being BENCH...

After having Jerry Yan of F4 from Taiwan's Meteor Garden as one of the Bench endorser, will there be another one, now from Korea?

Meteor Garden was a hit when it was televised in ABS-CBN. May it be a girl, a boy, even older people go crazy with the F4 princes from Taiwan. Because of this major hit, one of the Philippines top clothing line "BENCH" made a very big step in having one of the F4 guys endorse their line. They tagged it as "F4ever" which became a hit to millions of Filipinos who drool over and go crazy for this famous F4 guys.

It was a huge success, though we didn't get the chance to meet him in person, since the Fashion show was held in Cebu (if am not mistaken), I'm happy that he went to the Philippines even for a short time, even got the opportunity to have a courtesy call in Malacanang Palace by our very own president, Gloria Macapagal- Arroyo.


For now, will there be a chance for one of the newest F4 group to have the same opportunity that he had? Will BENCH ask one of the Korea's F4 to be it's endorser once again? or maybe another clothing line will have them as endorsers, like Penshoppe, Oxygen or Pink and Blue Soda.

Are we going to see them here in the Philippines like the other Asia Novela stars who visited our country? Will it be the 4 of them or just one of them? Still, it's a big question from me, and from all of the fans that they have here in our country.

So, Mr. Ben Chan, what do you think?

Will there be a chance that on the next BENCH fashion show we will be seeing one of this guys? Hmmmn, or another big step for BENCH to market its product in Korea?

How about you guys? another "F4ever"?

Going gaga...

Drooling over the hottest F4 sensation for this year... After having the very first F4 princes from Taiwan's Meteor Garden Jerry Yan, Vic Zhou, Vaness Wu and Ken Chu, now girls and gays go gaga over the newest F4 cast from Korea's Boys Over Flower, Lee Min Ho, Kim Hyun Joong, Kim Bum and Kim Joon.

Who won't fall in love with this guys?, with their smile and the way they handle themselves and how they portray their roles as the great F4 princes who happens to be the most popular guys in the most popular university. All of us have this experience way back our school days, no matter what, every school has their own campus hearthrobs, may it be the MVP of the year, the handsome nerd and even those campus hunks who competes in every school pageants. They may not be as handsome and as wealthy as this F4 princes, yet we must admit that we have them in real life.

I took 2 days vacation leave from work, want to know what I did the whole 2 days? I watch the whole 25 episodes of boys over flower. I finished the whole dvd for straight 2 days, yet still, I watched it for 2nd time around during my saturday and sunday off. I loved the story, I love how it goes, I love the emotions, the way the cast portray their roles it seems very real. I love how their (Geum Jan Di, Gu Jun Pyo and Yoon Ji Hoo) love triangle goes, isn't unfair for a very simple lady to have both men love her? one considered to be her soulmate who happens to be her knight and shining armour who's always there when she's in trouble and whenever she needs some one to lean on and the other guy who happens to be her lover, the one who can't let her go after all the heart aches and suffering he caused his girl, he kept on holding on and keeping his promise of making ways to make her happy. How lucky am I to be on that situation, to be that character.

What comes next for me, I'll be watching the full meteor garden episode and compare the diffrence of the story with boys over flower. I'll try to seek for the difference of the two series. What I hope for? For the story to evolve, have stories for the other F4 members, what happens next after the main character accepts the guys proposal. Did the other guys have the same happy ending like the other two.

As for me, I'm dying to go to Korea and have the chance to meet and greet the cast of boys over flower, to have a picture taken with them. To have a pictorial with each of the F4 guys, to have the opportunity to have fun with them and know them better. My biggest dream is to take part as one of the cast when there will be a remake of the series. Any role will do, as for now, I can only dream of it when I sleep and think about it whenever I have time to.

Feeling Crazy again...

I'm back from being a child frustrated and infatuated with the guys that I'm seeing from what I've been watching.

What if I'll get the chance to meet them? What am I to do?
What if I'll get the opportunity to be with them even for a day, what am I to say?
Why do I dream of them, when I know that I can't even hold on to them?
Why do I get this feeling of doing everything just to meet them?

Am I still a child who just fall easily?
Am I still that person who goes "gaga" whenever I see those lovable hunks?
Am I still that person who manages to do whatever I wish to do just to meet this guys?
Or I am now the "bitch" who droll over and has the attitude of getting what I want?

Having all this questions to myself is frustrating to do...
Can't even find the answers, what must I do?
Will things be the same like when I was young and unstoppable?
Or will it be different, now that I've grown and matured?

Live life to the fullest, live life like there's no tomorrow.
Live, love and be happy for whatever you have and for who you are...
You are who you are and you are the only one who can change yourself.
Nobody knows who we really are better than ourselves, only people tend to be our judges if we still need to change something to make as more better person.

Writing is not my genre, but I love doing some, especially when I want to be accepted.
To be in the lime light is my thing, but I have to leave it to earn a living.
Acting, dancing and singing, audience clapping and appreciating, things that I love to do.
Will I still get the chance to be with you?

I am a farmer of my own land, a driver of my own car and a guide to my own road.
I reminisce the past, live for the present and look forward to a bright future.
I will be whom I want to be but will always listen to criticism and accept the changes that needs to be done in order for me to be a better person, never dream to be the best coz there's always someone better than you are.

Just being me, Boys love me, Parents appreciate me, Insecure hates me and Friends couldn't live without me.
Love me, Hate me, or care for me... It's all up to you, but never judge my personality especially when you don't even know me, first impression change unless you tend to be a good judge.

What's the difference?

what's the difference between the two?

I always ask myself why both girls can be so publicly open with their relationships without any issues asked and boys always have one?

Isn't unfair that lesbian relationships are more open rather then gay relationships?

Filipino mentality is such a crazy thing to be with, we're unable to understand what do they really want. Everyone notices what you do and whatever your planning to do? They always question your appearances from root to tips, the way you speak and the way you act. So frustrating and tiring, why can't we move on and live for what is at the present time and just be happy and contented. I'm not saying that we forget our traditions coz it's already a part of our family, our daily lives and even before we were born. What I'm trying to say is that we try to cope up with the changes coz it happens very fast, live our lives to the fullest coz we might not know when will He be taking it back.

Why can't we just leave the old times and just remember them as part of our history, our past which can be of help in deciding on what we'll do in the future but will stay and live for the present.

Let's face it, changes happen for a reason, don't we notice, we love to experiment, that's the thing with our big brains, we know everything, all of us. No one wants to be called birdbrain that's why we see to it that we always know something new.

As for the old ones, don't be plastics, if I may say, once you try it, you'll definitely look for it and try it once more, ladies, don't be insecured by gays, you still have what it takes... Be experimental, as for the wifeys and granma's, watch your men's back coz they might try having you know what with gays, you might not know they want to try how it feels to have one with us. I already know a few out there who loves doing it without you knowing that they are already enjoying what we can give. hahaha

Simple rule, "let's not be discriminating and judgmental". Especially does who doesn't even have the chance to be on our feet, you don't know how it feels to belong. Feel free to be you, happy and contented for whatever you have. God Cares for us all and He does not choose whom to love, no rules and boundaries no questions being asked if you are straight or not, those who do are the once who have lot's of insecurities amongst themselves.

April Fools Month...

April 15, 2008, I left the country to have our mortgage training in Mount Laurel, NJ in US for 3 months, that was already 1 year ago. (I'm missing the place so much)

My second flight to another country after my unsuccessful flight to Japan several years back.

Never have I dreamed that what my accounts plan of sending some of us to US will push through, but it did and I was one of the lucky person chosen to be trained and have the opportunity to work with our clients.

Got 10 years multiple entry visa, have the chance to see several spots of the eastern US territory. Who won't fell in love with this country that everyone is dreaming about. Has no restrictions and discrimination, always open to changes and development.



This is my Apartment, I stayed with 5 Indian guys who happens to be our team mates from India, stayed with them for 1 week then I transferred to my Filipino team mates apartment.

So love this place, so peaceful and silent, I can live here for all my life.

Missing all the people whom I met a year ago, lot's of them became my friend and some became my buddies who goes on with the flow and who's always with wherever we go.

I'm still hoping that at this present year I'll be having another opportunity to go back to this country and have the chance of appreciating and loving the beautiful sights that this dream land has to offer. Another opportunity to meet new race and learn new cultures.


At the present time, April fools month means...



Body to Body Year 4, where I had the chance to work as with the Hunks and Babes from Central Luzon. My second time to be a part of this prestigious fashion bikini summit, which was held at Bruno and Diego, Diamond Subd. Balibago, Angeles City.

This event showcase lots of handsome men and gorgeous ladies who hails mostly from Pampanga. Produce by Mr. Dan Sampanga, and of course with the cooperation of our highly appreciated sponsors.

15 handsome hunks and 15 sexy and gorgeous ladies vies for the title, Body to Body 2009 the next level winner. Top on my list are as follows, for the males; candidate# 10 Richard Pangilinan, my dear friend Jim Eric candidate #1, Jeffrey Payumo, Josh Bustillo and Aaron Yanga candidate# 15, and for the ladies I have, candidate# 7 Tomoyo Sakan (hope I spelled her name right), Tin2 candidate# 13, and of course Mia Ayson candidate# 14, also candidate#1 perky gal Shaine Mayo. The bonding with this guys made me miss my first time of being B2B staff which happens to be the B2B year 3. I will never forget this experience, to Mama Dan, ever so strong and caring, our mother. Tita Vedz the all around tita of us all, the 3 R's love you guys! mwaaahhh...


I called this blog April fools month coz at this month, I started to dream what can happen in reality. This month is my time to shine once again.

PHH Life...

We all started with difficulties and challenges, lots of errors and corrections. We've been put on hold for two months, went through mack calls before being set on floor to make some calls and request for documents. We are helping americans build there dreams, and in return they also gave us the oppurtunity to see their world, tour the beauty of the promise land, see things you can only see in magazines, travel shows in cable and through internet. Meet Aunt Liberty and see the place where the most popular President lives. This goes for chosen few.

Let's go back to what we are talking about, Yes we've been a lot of difficulties and challenges, we can't control those to make things easier for us. We even went through the greatest challenge to save you, when every one spreads the news that we can't have you here with us in the Philippines cause we can't handle you well. A lot of us left you because they felt that they can't grow with you, but some of us stayed and fight for you tell the end facing every errors and learning from them, this made us more stronger and gave us the urge to learn more.

Now were facing new challenges again, to learn everypart of you. To compete for us to stay longer with you. It'll be difficult I know, but what the heck, we reached one year fighting for you, why not fight until you are the ones who will stay and let us be with you, or maybe let you just leave us coz you're really not meant to stay.

One year full of challenges, lot's of people to thank for the hard work and the urge to move on and fight until we succeed in having you with us. I'm proud that I saw everything that every one of us went through, one long year full of challenge. One long year of being a family, a team whose been working together to achieve the goal of having you with us. Hoping for more years until everyone believes that we are the one who suited to have you.

This is PHH, one year, one team, one goal and one FAMILY...

To love or not to love...

I only met him once, GEB of our clan, I was struck. All of a sudden, I texted him, asking if I could court him, He said "yes", I felt so great. I asked him deeper, can we go out on a date, he again answered "of course". I'm dumb founded, I was twice thinking if I'll push through or I'll just stop...

Then, there goes nothing, I pushed through courting him, it's been two weeks, nothing happened, just pure text and phone calls, sending sms with each other whenever we I find time. I never got the chance to go out with him. No yet... Will this time come? I don't know...

I left my heart in NJ, but I wish to move on... that guy I parted ways with wasn't meant for me at all. He is just a dream, a dream that will never happen due to cultural and traditional bareers between the two parting worlds of ours.

Now the big question is... Will I fall in love with this man? or I need to make sure that he is really meant for some one as fragile as me... Not that I'm raising my own chair, but I am too precious to be played along and to be hurt...

For the Nth time, will I focus on my career or will some one knock me off my feet and will have to balance everything...