Love is a noble act of self giving.
The more you love, the more you lose a part of you.
Yet, you do not become less of who you are.
In fact, you end up being complete.
Life is not a series of meaningless accidents.
When things are bound to happen, they will.
You're not an accident and I was meant to know you.
That's serendipity.
If you're leaving, take me with you.
If you're running away, take me to.
If you're jumping off, hold my hand.
I love life but it's worth losing if I lose it with you.
If you could be a part of my body, I'll let you be my heart.
For I want you to be the one who beats, be the center of my emotions
and be the last one to stop when I'm gone.
If I could reach the rainbow, I'd pull it down and put your name on it,
then put it back in the sky so people would see how colorful my life has been with you in it.
If ever I was given the chance to start my life all over again, I would rather not accept it.
Who knows? In that second start, I may not have known you at all.
I wish I could be with you every night, watch you fall asleep and kiss you goodnight.
When I get to heaven, I know just what to do,
I'll spend eternity watching over you.
Don;t ever get tired of life.
It doesn't matter if you fall several times coz each time you fall,
I won't let you reach the ground.
Trust me, I'll always be around.
You're one of the people I never asked fro God,
But still, He gave you to me.
I asked Him why? He said,
"Because he can fill your life like no one else can"
Please allow me to stare at you.
Please let me prove this love is true.
Please give me a chance to be closer to you.
Please, for I'm falling in love with you.
Whatever you do, I'll walk with you.
Hoping that your dreams come true.
Anytime, anywhere, I'll always be there.
Wishing you love and happiness coz I care.
True love is hard to find,
Special one, one of a kind.
I know it because it appeared to me on a strange day I met you.
You always said you wished you could find the person who loves you,
Then, I walked by and you don't even notice I'm the one who does.
Life is a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them in mutual weirdness and call it love.
Wantin' you is easy,
Missin' you is hard,
Constantly I think of you when we are apart.
I've got the padlock you have the key to my heart.
You said you love me and want to hold me tight.
Those words run through my head day and night.
I dreamt you held me and made me see that forever together we would be.
The right guy isn't the one that flirts outrageously with you,
It's the one that stands in the background and catches you when you fall.
Relationships are like snapshots,
Some you remember and some you forget,
but some you never develop and you never get to see how they would have turned up.
People will forget what you said.
People will forget what you did.
but people will never forget haw you made them feel.
It is hard to let go of someone who has touched your life,
but it hurts more to say goodbye to some one when he was never yours yet change your life the most.
I hate the feeling knowing you can't just come up to me and put your arms around me.
I hate it so much because it was the only thing that could brighten up my day.
If I had to choose between you and everything in the world,
I would choose you cause then I'd have more than everything in the world.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Me, Myself and I
My real name is Jonathan Olaer Gapul. Born on February 23, 1986 under the sign of Pisces and a true blood Tiger. I am much closer with my Mom, though my Dad happens to be a stage father when I was still young, pushing me to join all the the events we have in school, from school plays to being sporty. My dad is a true blood "probinsyano" who happens to live like a bachelor at the age of 50+ (can you believe that?), he happens to have a "barkada" almost as my age, older than me of course. I am the eldest of four, some says I don't look like them unless you double check our features, some says, I'm more of my father's especially now that i'm already grown up. I even experienced being called by my Dad's name when I was buying something at the store near where I live.
I live with my friends family for five years now, considered as one of their family member. One thing that I've proven with my father's relative; someone will adopt me and care for me as one of their family member. I've been independent since the age of 13 since my family left me and stayed in my fathers province in Samar. I started working at the age of seventeen after I graduated from high school.
I live with my friends family for five years now, considered as one of their family member. One thing that I've proven with my father's relative; someone will adopt me and care for me as one of their family member. I've been independent since the age of 13 since my family left me and stayed in my fathers province in Samar. I started working at the age of seventeen after I graduated from high school.
I've been into several fast food chains, Jollibee and Chowking to be particular, been into theatre as an actor and Stage Manager. Had the chance to work as an event coordinator and also been a Jr. Cook with one of the newly built restobar in the City. Haven't got the opportunity to finish my degree in HRM. Undergone call center training when I decided to try something new. Had the chance to work in Makati for 4 consecutive months, then back in Pampanga.
Been hired as an associate at Sutherland Global Services, been with the company for quite awhile now. enjoying my job and got the chance to go to US for Mortgage Training, one of the biggest opportunity that was given by the company. My dream is to become one of the top fashion designers around the Globe, well known and have my own modelling agency that handle potential models and actors.
I'm not a family person and I've never been into relationship for quite a long time. So currently am still single and looking for someone who will make me feel special. Motto in life; time is Gold; I'll rather be better than best coz there's always someone out there who's best than I am. "Fata Viam Inveniente". That's all for now...
Monday, July 13, 2009
Philosophies and Music in Life: from Soultaker's profile
"I'm trapped in this world Lonely and fading, Heart broke and waiting For you to come. We are stuck in this world that’s not meant for me, for me."
"Why is everything so fucking hard for me? Keep me down to what you think I should
"sadness is a gift if felt with honesty..."
"I'm screaming for something -- Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all"
"uninspired and growing tired why am i so attracted to drama so here i am, grown up at 23 will someone tell me what it takes to be happy"
"the broken watch you gave me turns into a compass, its two hands point to the same time -- 12:03, our last goodbye"
"If you could slit my throat, with my last one grasping breath, i'd apologived for bleeding at your shirt"
"Why is everything so fucking hard for me? Keep me down to what you think I should
"sadness is a gift if felt with honesty..."
"I'm screaming for something -- Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all"
"uninspired and growing tired why am i so attracted to drama so here i am, grown up at 23 will someone tell me what it takes to be happy"
"the broken watch you gave me turns into a compass, its two hands point to the same time -- 12:03, our last goodbye"
"If you could slit my throat, with my last one grasping breath, i'd apologived for bleeding at your shirt"
ONE LOVE by soultaker
Barriers are made to be broken/
And love is a destiny to unfold/
But what if the journey to forevers/
Laden with hindrance, we started to let go/
You’re the one who inspired me/
Show me how life is beautiful/
But yet everything feels so empty/
You’re too far, too perverse to reach on/
Even God would not honor this/
It is sinful to fall in love with you/
If only people would realize and understand/
My love for you is more than my life/
I love you but than we have no choice/
Only in our dreams our love will flow/
More than star-crossed sweethearts/
Our situation is left in the dark/
Let the memories last forever/
And all the heartaches vanishes to the sea/
As the wind blows and time runs faster/
Let the rainfall fades our everything
Our eyes will faithfully be the same/
The looks will always last forever/
Somehow, I know, as I will always be/
Hope will see us through, love will set us free/
And love is a destiny to unfold/
But what if the journey to forevers/
Laden with hindrance, we started to let go/
You’re the one who inspired me/
Show me how life is beautiful/
But yet everything feels so empty/
You’re too far, too perverse to reach on/
Even God would not honor this/
It is sinful to fall in love with you/
If only people would realize and understand/
My love for you is more than my life/
I love you but than we have no choice/
Only in our dreams our love will flow/
More than star-crossed sweethearts/
Our situation is left in the dark/
Let the memories last forever/
And all the heartaches vanishes to the sea/
As the wind blows and time runs faster/
Let the rainfall fades our everything
Our eyes will faithfully be the same/
The looks will always last forever/
Somehow, I know, as I will always be/
Hope will see us through, love will set us free/
Monday, July 6, 2009
Face Book Mania...
Ey, oras na para matulog, may duty ka pa mamaya noh... hahaha, na addict sa Facebook and Dyosa, ayaw ng matulog gustong mag pa level nalang.
Haisssttt, life is such a lot of fun whenever you go online, atleast playing this games in facebook makes me feel how to be rich once in awhile, having huge properties and earning millions of dollars per hour, take note; "per hour", howeever, just like real business, we need more people in order to grow, so we still need to have more friends.
But of course, reading blogs about BOF is still my priority. I need to know the latest updates regarding my dream boys, especially my two korean boybands; T-max and SS501. Thanks to Addicting towards BOF and Supigity blogs, I can read what's the latest happenings about them. Hmmn, still hoping that they'll have a tour in our country though.
As for me, feeling awkward with my team mates for being so judgemental about my friends whom I helped to be at our workplace. I don't really know what's the real reason behind, but what we see with our naked eyes is not always the truth, am I right? One thing I hate the most is when you say something bad at the back of my friends, (I always do that though especially when hate that particular person and I really don't like his or her attitude). Well, it doesn't matter what they say even if it's true. All I know is that they are my friends and I can accept them no matter what. What's the big deal of being gay or bisexual when you know how to handle yourself well and you're not hurting other peoples feeling, none, right? Just like me, am out and proud, and no matter what they say about me, by the end of the day I always have my friends and family to accept me.
For that particluar "BIATCH" who's trying to find out the truth and spreads rumor regarding my friends sexuality, damn you! you don't even deserve the position where you're at right now. Try to think twice why you did have that position and try to ask yourself if that truly belongs to you. In the end, you'll realize that you'll have to thank a lot of people coz even though we all hate your attitude, we still support you. As for my friends whom you can't stop spreading rumors with, the hell you care, no one will ever like your God damn attitude. As I always say, "Parents appreciate me, boys love and respects me, insecure hates me and my true friends couldn't live without me". Can you even say that?
I may be a little dreamy sometime, but I know my limitations, always happy to help and ready to stand up whenever I fall. When I'm torn apart, I tend to fix myself and when I lose a battle, I'm always ready to move on and fight again. Win or lose, champion or no champion, I'll always be standing chin up high, ready to accept every challenges that'll come my way. To you who make me feel worst, thank you! I really appreciate it, I'm now ready to learn and grow more better than before.
What an emotion... was entitled Facebook mania, but the contents doesn't seem one.
Haisssttt, life is such a lot of fun whenever you go online, atleast playing this games in facebook makes me feel how to be rich once in awhile, having huge properties and earning millions of dollars per hour, take note; "per hour", howeever, just like real business, we need more people in order to grow, so we still need to have more friends.
But of course, reading blogs about BOF is still my priority. I need to know the latest updates regarding my dream boys, especially my two korean boybands; T-max and SS501. Thanks to Addicting towards BOF and Supigity blogs, I can read what's the latest happenings about them. Hmmn, still hoping that they'll have a tour in our country though.
As for me, feeling awkward with my team mates for being so judgemental about my friends whom I helped to be at our workplace. I don't really know what's the real reason behind, but what we see with our naked eyes is not always the truth, am I right? One thing I hate the most is when you say something bad at the back of my friends, (I always do that though especially when hate that particular person and I really don't like his or her attitude). Well, it doesn't matter what they say even if it's true. All I know is that they are my friends and I can accept them no matter what. What's the big deal of being gay or bisexual when you know how to handle yourself well and you're not hurting other peoples feeling, none, right? Just like me, am out and proud, and no matter what they say about me, by the end of the day I always have my friends and family to accept me.
For that particluar "BIATCH" who's trying to find out the truth and spreads rumor regarding my friends sexuality, damn you! you don't even deserve the position where you're at right now. Try to think twice why you did have that position and try to ask yourself if that truly belongs to you. In the end, you'll realize that you'll have to thank a lot of people coz even though we all hate your attitude, we still support you. As for my friends whom you can't stop spreading rumors with, the hell you care, no one will ever like your God damn attitude. As I always say, "Parents appreciate me, boys love and respects me, insecure hates me and my true friends couldn't live without me". Can you even say that?
I may be a little dreamy sometime, but I know my limitations, always happy to help and ready to stand up whenever I fall. When I'm torn apart, I tend to fix myself and when I lose a battle, I'm always ready to move on and fight again. Win or lose, champion or no champion, I'll always be standing chin up high, ready to accept every challenges that'll come my way. To you who make me feel worst, thank you! I really appreciate it, I'm now ready to learn and grow more better than before.
What an emotion... was entitled Facebook mania, but the contents doesn't seem one.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Back to work...
Haissst, long vacation is over... We might not be in the USA to celebrate July the 4th, but we still got the opportunity to enjoy the long weekend here in the Philippines. Thanks to our dear account and for the low volume that we got last week, me and my workmates got the chance to take a rest and do whatehatewe wish to do. It might be being online with facebook, online job searching for new career, or by just playing online games competing who'll have a high level on the games we play together.
As for me, I partyed last friday along with my friends, then go online and find new jobs that will help me grow, play online games 24 hrs. Helped my Aunt baking pastries for school deliveries early monday morning, and go online again to check my online games.
Searched for prospect BF's through guys4men and also through cable chat rooms, still can't find one. Am I a girl? why am I sooo choosy when it comes to finding the right peron for me. I really love to have a boyfriend who will be caring, sweet and thoughtful, someone who can accept me for who I am and can provide me with sexual satisfaction, meaning "huge" hahaha. Am I that demanding? guess so, but you can'n push yourself into loving and dating someone if there is no spark whenever you to are with each other.
Haaayyyy, can't move on with this stuffs, one day, I'll write a blog with my dream guy as the topic and subject so that if someone cares to read my blog, they can help me find one. What a pity, it's been what? 23 years of being lonely, what happened.
Hmmmnnn, it's monday again, in few hours, I'm going to work, thinking about how much salary will I be having on the 15th since I'm not hearing any words from my dear friend who happens to have a debt in me. I'm totally broke, can't even buy new clothing to change my wardrobe, the difficulty of not wearing uniforms for work. Fashion dilemma, call center agents understand my situation I guess, only job in the world after fashion jobs that needs to be fashionably updated.
So, have to go now, till next time, I know no one will care to read my blogs since it's more personal and it doesn't have any thing. No topics at all, free writing, what I'm thinking I'm writing even though it's far from the subject/title that I have. Anyone who cares to help me out, just post a comment, or kindly add me up on Facebook or Friendster; jgapul@yahoo.com.
As for me, I partyed last friday along with my friends, then go online and find new jobs that will help me grow, play online games 24 hrs. Helped my Aunt baking pastries for school deliveries early monday morning, and go online again to check my online games.
Searched for prospect BF's through guys4men and also through cable chat rooms, still can't find one. Am I a girl? why am I sooo choosy when it comes to finding the right peron for me. I really love to have a boyfriend who will be caring, sweet and thoughtful, someone who can accept me for who I am and can provide me with sexual satisfaction, meaning "huge" hahaha. Am I that demanding? guess so, but you can'n push yourself into loving and dating someone if there is no spark whenever you to are with each other.
Haaayyyy, can't move on with this stuffs, one day, I'll write a blog with my dream guy as the topic and subject so that if someone cares to read my blog, they can help me find one. What a pity, it's been what? 23 years of being lonely, what happened.
Hmmmnnn, it's monday again, in few hours, I'm going to work, thinking about how much salary will I be having on the 15th since I'm not hearing any words from my dear friend who happens to have a debt in me. I'm totally broke, can't even buy new clothing to change my wardrobe, the difficulty of not wearing uniforms for work. Fashion dilemma, call center agents understand my situation I guess, only job in the world after fashion jobs that needs to be fashionably updated.
So, have to go now, till next time, I know no one will care to read my blogs since it's more personal and it doesn't have any thing. No topics at all, free writing, what I'm thinking I'm writing even though it's far from the subject/title that I have. Anyone who cares to help me out, just post a comment, or kindly add me up on Facebook or Friendster; jgapul@yahoo.com.
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