Reflections

I am observant and everyone close to me would know. 

People will show that they like you but behind your back they talk differently. I myself is guilty of being that way, I talk behind peoples back too, it's an honest confession. I talk about their negative traits that I hated, the stupid things that they do, the attitudes that I can't stand to tolerate. I guess that is how we all are, we find ways to channel negativities we see and we experience from different people by bursting out the bad things about them. You see, for me doing so will help you find a way to see the goodness in them, their positive traits. I am not destroying them, but by doing so, I get to know them more and I find the best way to deal with them. I find balance in everything, in life, in challenges, in experiences. We all make mistakes, we are not perfect, but we can live with love instead of hatred, of peace instead of chaos, of acceptance instead of discrimination, and freedom to be taken lightly and with rules to still be followed.

There are some things in this world that we cannot break even if we want to, and that is the law of nature, you can be whoever you wanted to be, but you still need to respect what was originally created. We are created equally and gifted differently, so we must find respect in everything that we see and what we believe. Not because you changed yourself into who someone whom you believe you are, you already have the freedom to make everyone believe that you are. There are always boundaries and limitations, it is not hypocrisy nor discrimination, it's mutual respect and acceptance. Just because you are given freedom you will go beyond limitation. That's not how it work.

At the end of the day, you have to respect yourself first before everyone will respect you. 2018 for me is a balance year. I had my ups and downs, some abrupt decisions made, challenges and realizations. Been to places and met different people. Became more close to people who are close to my heart. Had days of depression but was able to break free and become more focused on the reasons why I decided to take chances in a faraway place, far from family and close friends. And, ended up living with the family who cultivated me to become who I am today. 

My life is still full of challenges and I just face them day by day. I know what I am capable of, what my skills and talents are, my strength and weaknesses, and in time, with a leap of faith, I will be blessed with what my heart desires. Lord Jesus and heavenly Father will always be there as my guide along with everyone who cares and love me no matter what.

Thanks 2018 for all the adventures, to all the places that you let me see. It has been a great and wonderful year, specially that I have ended it being with my family who accepted and believes in me and what I am capable of doing.