Song of My Heart...

You came along, unexpectedly
I was doing fine in my little world
Oh baby please don't get me wrong
'Cause I'm not complaining
But you see, you got my mind spinning

Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers
Only friends
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me

Baby I dream of you every minute
You're in my dreams
You're always in it
That's the only place I know
Where you could be mine
And I'm yours but only
Till I wake up

Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers
Only friends
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me
-- This song currently reminds me of the love that I've lost, a love that I was trying to gain...

Broken Heart...

It started in the chat room, gay site to be exact, we get along pretty well. I started out admiring him and then he accepted me as me. As always, since I have a huge crush on him, I can't talk to him nor greet him whenever we meet on our work area.

Got the chance to have a bonding with him when I got sick, he was there, we get along just fine.
He is sweet and caring, he even asked me to take good care of myself and his always there beside me "umaalalay". At work, I had the chance to sit and talk beside him during our coffee break. My friends tease me a lot coz they all knew how huge my admiration for him was.

I never thought that I'll be falling for him, they say that "a way to man's heart is through his stomach", so, I tried to let him taste my delicacies, one that me and my aunt deliver at every school canteen. He was happy coz I never thought that it was his fave. So every time we bake, I'll see to it that there's something for him. I'm happy seeing him happy even though I know that he's having trouble with his job.

We keep in touch through chat, talking about what's new with our selves, with our jobs. We confide problems, I always do, coz it make me feel better opening stuffs to him. I try to cheer him up whenever he feels down due to some work matters and personal problems. I thought that eerything going out pretty well. I thought that I'll have the chance to show him how I care.
Last Sunday, I saw this note he wrote in his FB profile, I checked it out. It was a poem written for someone special, I had an instinct that it was dedicated for someone special. I commented and it, and BANG! there the person whom the poem was dedicated to was tagged.

I don't know why but it made my heart cry, I felt the pain without even knowing why. I know that he considers me as his friend and no more than that. It was my fault coz I dreamed that one day we can be together not just as friends but as someone special with each other.

The worst and saddest part that makes me cry right now while writing this blog, He officially declared that he's no longer single, he's married...

-Should I be happy coz he already found his someone special or should I be sad coz he didn't chose me instead...

We all learn... -Ryan Tuazon-

Life and relationships are funny in the way that they don’t always remain the same. Sometimes people change so much that relationships become harder to maintain. Lovers, friends and even family need to grow and evolve together or they may find themselves feeling the need to pull apart. If you don’t allow these things to happen and move with the tide a little, you’ll find yourself constantly struggling as you swim against the current. That is tiresome. You find yourself held back. When you feel you’re being stunted you become distressed, frustrated and sometimes you become a little bitter about those who are holding you back in life. Alanis Morisette said it best when she sang:



I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you’re gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn

09/11/09 Fri at 21:07

It was cold, When you came, you gave life and warmth. - Christpher Ken Daine

What does your love mean to me. It's something i can't answer easily.
just like the air that i breathe, you fill me up inside, you give me all that i need.
like a bird flying high on a summers day. You're the wind that carries me away
to a place where you and i will always stay forever.

Sometimes things happen, and they do for a reason. It may be too early for me to say we'll last forever, but I know I love you till I say never.

09/13/09 (Today at 03:11)