PHH Life...

We all started with difficulties and challenges, lots of errors and corrections. We've been put on hold for two months, went through mack calls before being set on floor to make some calls and request for documents. We are helping americans build there dreams, and in return they also gave us the oppurtunity to see their world, tour the beauty of the promise land, see things you can only see in magazines, travel shows in cable and through internet. Meet Aunt Liberty and see the place where the most popular President lives. This goes for chosen few.

Let's go back to what we are talking about, Yes we've been a lot of difficulties and challenges, we can't control those to make things easier for us. We even went through the greatest challenge to save you, when every one spreads the news that we can't have you here with us in the Philippines cause we can't handle you well. A lot of us left you because they felt that they can't grow with you, but some of us stayed and fight for you tell the end facing every errors and learning from them, this made us more stronger and gave us the urge to learn more.

Now were facing new challenges again, to learn everypart of you. To compete for us to stay longer with you. It'll be difficult I know, but what the heck, we reached one year fighting for you, why not fight until you are the ones who will stay and let us be with you, or maybe let you just leave us coz you're really not meant to stay.

One year full of challenges, lot's of people to thank for the hard work and the urge to move on and fight until we succeed in having you with us. I'm proud that I saw everything that every one of us went through, one long year full of challenge. One long year of being a family, a team whose been working together to achieve the goal of having you with us. Hoping for more years until everyone believes that we are the one who suited to have you.

This is PHH, one year, one team, one goal and one FAMILY...

To love or not to love...

I only met him once, GEB of our clan, I was struck. All of a sudden, I texted him, asking if I could court him, He said "yes", I felt so great. I asked him deeper, can we go out on a date, he again answered "of course". I'm dumb founded, I was twice thinking if I'll push through or I'll just stop...

Then, there goes nothing, I pushed through courting him, it's been two weeks, nothing happened, just pure text and phone calls, sending sms with each other whenever we I find time. I never got the chance to go out with him. No yet... Will this time come? I don't know...

I left my heart in NJ, but I wish to move on... that guy I parted ways with wasn't meant for me at all. He is just a dream, a dream that will never happen due to cultural and traditional bareers between the two parting worlds of ours.

Now the big question is... Will I fall in love with this man? or I need to make sure that he is really meant for some one as fragile as me... Not that I'm raising my own chair, but I am too precious to be played along and to be hurt...

For the Nth time, will I focus on my career or will some one knock me off my feet and will have to balance everything...

Questions from my HEART...

Why can't I have what I want to have?

Why can't they accept the fact that this is the real me, I'm the complete package, what the Heck!!! This is too unfair...

Do I really have to change my whole life, my habits, my personality just to prove to them that I also deserve to be loved and not just to love?

What else do I have to do to have the man of my dream?

Cry? Pray? be a Slut? a BITCH? or just be me all the time, no restrictions just pure balance?

Or maybe, just maybe, find some one whom I can pay and spend all the fruits of my labor?

What else? I'm tired of being ALONE, Crying whenever I feel lonely and sad, I'm tired of seeing other couples happy, specially whenever I see romance with both sexes...

I'm already tired, in pain, I just want to be happy for once in my life...

When will HE come? When? Just tell me when...